My re-awaking to a fearless love

I love true love. And while I am a fan of fairytales and happily ever afters, I don’t mean true love in that sense, but rather this 1 john 4 love that I based this blog around. I know it’s been months since I’ve written last, but a re-awaking to this pursuit to love fearlessly has urged me to write again. I am beyond grateful for the heart God has given me, but as I am lead through new journeys with Him I am seeing how lately He really has been showing me what it means to love fearlessly. I always knew that loving others could bring pain. And while I knew that feeling their pain would cause pain in my heart too, I mostly thought of how I didn’t want to be afraid to love others because of the pain of rejection they might bring. God however, has been showing me the immense pain one can feel from feeling the hurt of others. The fears of seeing those you love in pain and being helpless. The pain of loving someone, but seeing them view themselves so lowly, or in a hopeless despair. And so lately God has been showing me not to fear the pain the heart can feel. Yes its suffering, but its suffering He knows well, and is now letting me share with Him. He’s letting me see and feel glimpses of the depth of love He felt for us. A love so deep that He sweat blood at Gethsemane and then later gave up His life for.

 

There is so much pain in this world, but there is also love and hope, and I want to help bring it. Only I am now realizing that in order to truly bring that hope and love, I have to be willing to see and truly feel the pain that is in need of the love. And so as I start off another year, my hope is to truly be able to love those around me fearlessly. To see their hurt for what it is, and then let God use me to bring them the comfort, encouragement, and prayer they need. We sang this song in church and it is what reminded me that I need to dedicate my heart and all that it feels to Him and His will for me and those all around me. My heart belongs to Him, and it is because of that, that I will be able to love fearlessly.

All My Love

You made a way for me

To come to your mercy seat

Your death has opened up the door

Now that the veil has been torn

My broken life is restored

Your precious blood has washed me clean

                All my love is yours, all of my affection

                All my heart belongs to the lord most high

One thing I ask and seek

To gaze upon your beauty

To dwell in your house forever more

For my body longs for you

More than for drink or food

My soul thirsts for the living God

All of my heart and my soul

All of my strength is yours

All of my hopes and my dreams

I give to you my king

 All of my plans and my ways

I lay them down and say

All of my love is yours